Indigo
Written & Produced by Xolisa


sometimes
the silence seems 
like sounds unbearable to disguise
fill a gap 
a space
that needs no fillin' up
my cup runs over
surely love will soon surrender
no invadin'
i'd rather wait &
let love find me
refine me
bind me 
guide me
try me by the lines i spit
make it legit
many times i sign that dotted line
of acceptance
exceptions always prevail &

sometimes
i find
i don't have the energy
to give a fuck
but
would gladly give you love
if you let me
so easily it's a shame
but it's what's true
giving peace to you
i'm tryna maintain
but at times i strain
i find
i stray when you're around
sometimes i find it hard to turn to volume
of my ego down
surrounded by the sound
surrounded by the sound 
emotions amplified & roamin' free
you receive my honesty
in loads that i can't fold
& hold
wakin' up to story books of emotions in my perspective
my imagery at its bestest
my finest rhymes
wrapped in the sharpest vines &
vulnerability 
served up on a platter
you've seen my walls collapse
& seen em gather

 

let go x4

 

vulnerability
served up on a platter
you've seen my walls collapse
& seen em gather
i've sat & watched you try to mend the damage
i've sat & watched you balance
sat & watched you drop that shit
& take a rest from tryna manage
i've sat & watched you
watch the others
i've watched you lavish
just as you have sat & watched me drain the sea
watched my tears
drain the life of me
you've seen the darkest hours of my spectrum
seen the deepest slopes
of my depression
i've seen you watch my sun rise
i've watched you watch my brightest light
in its reflection

i've seen you watch me love so tenderly
so slow
so free
you've seen my body take you places
seen my essence elevated
i've seen your patience
i've seen your patience
i've seen your patience
i've seen you slowly accept my ways
you've seen my stumbles
i've seen your aura before my eyes
i've seen emotions run deep beneath your surface
felt a glimpse of your purpose
your gentleness
you are gentle & wild
you've seen me accept, reject, accept
& shuck & jive between
resistance & my freedom
my demons 
you've seen me slay
i've watched you drain
i've seen you full
i've seen you give the deepest care
i've seen you pull
i've heard your distance 
& felt your strain
you body of water
i've seen you dryer than my fire could ever scorch 
i've walked your desert 
a couple times before
& felt the sting of your frustration
you've seen the wrath of confrontation 

my vulnerability 
served up on a platter
you've seen my walls collapse
& seen em gather
 

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